Strange.....

For the past few weeks I have been so stressed out that I have been either loosing sleep or I freak out so much that all I can do is sleep cause then I don't have to think about the little things that are making my hair fall out. 
To start things off I got accepted into my dream school. BELMONT UNIVERSITY in Nashville Tennessee. I am so excited to get out of Spokane that it is not even funny. I mean I love Spokane but there is literally nothing for me here except a few friends. I want to leave so badly, but I am kinda sad to leave. 
The second thing that has been causing me to loose sleep is the fact that when I leave in Spokane, my parents are moving to Portland Oregon. The last time I am in my room will be when I am about to move and go to the place where my dreams are hopefully going to come true. But the foundation of my life is being picked up and moved. I am happy that my parents are living their life, but it is just hard to think that when I come home for Christmas I will have never stepped foot into my parents house. It will no longer be home, but my parents house. I am just having a hard time, but I know that where ever my parents are then it will for always feel like home. It will be a big adjustment time in my life, but I know that I can get through it. 

Xx, 

Audrey 

Dreams....

Ok... I am going to share with you something that has been locked away in my heart since I was in the 6th grade. 

It all started with one night when me and my family went to see the newly crowned American Idol winner Carrie Underwood at the Spokane Arena for her Some Hearts tour. That night I saw and witnessed one of the great voices of music today. She was magnificent and so inspiring that I fell head over heals for music. After her concert I listened to music more than doing homework, which in the end bit me in the butt. 

Six years later I was able to go see Miss Underwood a second time, this time it was for her Blown Away Tour, which was amazing!!!!!!!! During the show she stopped and took a moment to thank everyone for all her of achievements. During that time she said that if you have a dream go for it and do it. 

Well my dream since probably the age of 6 is to stand on a stage in front of whoever will listen to me and sing songs that I wrote. I know that millions of other people in this world have the same dream as I do and that is why it has taking me this long to realize that nothing will hurt if I try to pursue this crazy dream of mine. 

Now after almost completing my freshmen year of college I have decided to follow my dream and pursue music. 

It all hit me that if by some miracle things turn out for the better I could play the Spokane Arena. Last night my family and some friends went to a Spokane Shock arena football game. I was looking around at all the seats and all the people screaming and cheering and all I could think about was the fact that one day maybe I could have all those seats filled and all the people cheering me on. 

For years I have been singing in the shower and my parents and friends tell me that I can sing, but there has always been the biggest fear of mine weighing on my shoulders....... the thought of being told no. I guess I just have to suck it up and go for it, because if I don't I might turn into one of those old ladies that looks back on her life with regrets. 

xx, 

Audrey 

Cute.....

Sorry for the lack of posts it is just that I am in the middle of "dead week" which for some of you that dont know "dead week" is an loving way of saying the week before finals.

But the purpose of this point is becasue last night I was sitting in my dorm room when I found out that Taylor Swift released  probably the cutest video of her career. The music video for Everything Has Changed feat Ed Sheeran. With my love for the two of them I quickly opened it up and watched it. During the video you see two adorable children a girl in a white dress with curls in her hair and a little boy with fiery red hair. Over the corse of the 3 minuet long song you see the two children falling in love while sharing a sandwich on the playground, sharing a seat on the bus to school, and even doing yoga during PE. But for me the cutest moment was when the two small children were being picked up after a long day at school, that is when Taylor and Ed made an appearance as the children's different parents.

After all the videos I have seen from Taylor this one without a doubt is my favorite.

Everything Has Changed- Taylor Swift feat. Ed Sheeran

xx,

Audrey 

Music Monday....

Today I was walking back from my 8 am class, and this song came onto my iPod and as I was listening to it, I realized that the chorus was what I was feeling at that exact moment! The song was "Goodbye Town" by Lady Antebellum from their album Golden.

It says:

Nothing but a goodbye town
To hell if I'm sticking aroundGotta find a way to finally get outOut of this goodbye town

I have been trying to find a song that says exactly how I feel about the hope of leaving Spokane and this does perfectly! 

xx, 

Audrey

Time Goes On...

Yesterday was my cousins High School Graduation. Walking into the room where the ceremony would be held I saw many familiar faces and said hello to a few High School teachers of mine. When it came time for the show to get on the road I realized how much my life has changed in such a short year and how much theirs is about to change in a matter of hours. They would no longer be referenced to as the senior class, but as the class of 2013, no longer called Panthers, but called alumni. After the graduation came the party. At first it was really nice, talking with some older relatives of mine and talking with my 6th grade teacher that I absolutely adore. Then it happened.

For most of my life my cousin has been more popular with the people I graduated with, and when you only have 18 students in a class it is hard to make friends, but with my cousin it turned in to having a hard time keeping the friends that I had. Most of the time when I getting close becoming friends with someone she always came in just at the right time and got closer to them, before I could. So back to graduation.

I found out from a girl that I went to school with that my cousin invited most of her class and my entire class to her house at 8. Well the party I was invited to was just for family and ended at 8. That means that I, HER COUSIN, was not invited to her graduation party with her friends. It was hard to see my "friends" walk into her backyard and say hi to her and walk right pass me and not say a word.

It was hurtful and made me realize that I had nothing in common with these people anymore. Small talk was all we could talk about and it was awkward and uncomfortable. It makes me want to leave this place and move to Nashville so much more.

xx,

Audrey

Something New: James Arthur

My soul is made up of one thing.... MUSIC! Over the last couple years I have been giving music ideas to some of my friends and family so I thought that I would share with all of you.

For the first  artist is: James Arthur.

In 2012 James auditioned for the UK version of the X Factor. He sang a mash up (two songs collided into one) of Tuslia( a UK artist) "Young" and his own song. All four judges gave him a yes and allowed Arthur to head on to Bootcamp week. During Bootcamp James wowed the judges and secured a place at Judges Homes. After heading to Dubai, 23 year old Arthur found out that his Judge/Mentor would be Nicole Scherzinger, a former Pussy Cat Doll. At a lavish hotel Arthur left his heart on the floor and performed in front of Scherzinger and special guest Ne-Yo. With receiving the good news and the golden ticket to Live Performances James Arthur made the transition from Pub player to National superstar. After competing for many weeks and only being in the bottom 2 once (against Ella Henderson). James Arthur made it to the Live Final. After performing Shontelle's Impossible, Arthur was crowned victor.

Now Arthur is recording his debut album and getting ready to release it later this year. To me there is no doubt that he will be a big star in the UK, but also in America.

James Arthur Audition

Pain...

Over the years I have been put through a lot of pain. Physical and Mental. For the past 4 days I have been dealing with a horrible knee injury that my chiropractor thinks in a torn MCL. It is no fun and I hate having to sit in bed all day waiting for a doctors app. that can not be scheduled till tomorrow.

While sitting hear I have been thinking about all the pain that is worse than a stupid knee injury. I thought back to the horrible Junior High days when I had friends turn their backs on me and pretend that I didn't exist. I thought about when in High School I felt like all my friends decided to be in relationships and leave me to alone and would only talk to me when it was convenient for them. Then I realized that a stupid knee injury wasn't going to impact my life and end it just because I was sitting in bed, but it showed me that I have true friends that would check up on me and make sure that I was ok and still resting and not walking around. I found out who my true friends were and I cant thank them enough. I know that this sounds soppy, but it is true. Sometimes in life you have moments where you step back and look at things and realize "my life is not as bad as I make it out to be."

I am so happy with the friends that I have made here at college over the past year and I have no clue how I am going to leave them in a matter of 16 days. I know that I cant take them with me when I turn the page and write the next chapter but I know that they will encourage me and wish me all the best as I move on with life.

I guess the point of this post is for me to just say that I love my friends and I couldn't imagine going through a possible surgery without them and I don't feel alone as much I think I am at times. I am still trying to figure out who I am, but I know I have people with me helping me along this crazy road! :)

XX,

Audrey 

Who I Am... Right Now.

Who I am... That's a good question. Well for starters I am 18 years old, and I live in the semi-boring town of Spokane. Don't get me wrong I love it here and I have been here for my entire life, but that is long enough for me. It has been a nice place to grow up and figure out who I was in the awkward years of Junior High and High School, now as the first year of college comes to an end I find myself asking "Who am I really?" 

You see I went to a very private Christian school grades K-12, it was a place where I could try new things that I may not have been able to do if I was at a public school. I was involved in Varsity Volleyball, Tennis, and Cheerleading for most of my High School career. I found myself defining myself as a Middle Hitter on the Volleyball court, Captain of the Cheerleading Squad, and number one girls double in the Tennis cage(that's what I affectionately call it), but I could never seem to find the definition of who I am. I knew that I loved playing my sports and I loved music, but I never knew if what I loved would bring me to the dreams I have had. 

Last June I graduated from High School and I felt like my world was ending. All the friends that I have grown up with were moving away, my sports were ending, and most of all a huge part of my definition( at the time) was over and I would never go back to it. That part was, Dance.  Since I was 6 weeks old I have been at a dance studio (thanks to my sister that was taking classes) and then at the age of three I started dancing. From three to eighteen I was at a dance studio and on a stage multiple times a year, so when my finale recital came and went I felt like it was a huge part of me that was never coming back. 

Now, I am almost done with my first year of college at Eastern Washington University. It has been a great year and I have made amazing friends that I will take with me where ever I go, but it is not where I belong. I don't belong in a place surrounded by wheat fields! With that in my head I found a school with a dream major and in a dream city. Belmont University in Nashville Tennessee. I applied to it and got word back saying that they are very interested, but I just have to complete my time at Eastern and then send my official transcripts to Belmont then I will find out if the hard work I have put in this year will be worth it. 

But for right now I am just trying to find who i am in a sea of people. 

XX, 

Audrey

I want to use this blog as a diary that will help me look back to see where I have gone and remember what I have gone through. Somedays I might post more than others but I am going to try to post what ever is on my mind each week. 

:)